Saturday, January 3, 2009


Feeling Blue
Hearing Silence

Hubby & The Prince are out and about and I am alone this morning.

Alone with my thoughts.

Today was my due date three years ago.

I should have a three year old birthday party to get ready for. I should be stressed and tearing my hair out to have a party so soon after Christmas and with a fairly newborn baby in the mix.

Though I am feeling a bit lost in "what might have been" thoughts I am nonetheless feeling very happy.

It's a new year with new hope.

I am not sure what to hope and pray for now.

As I (and The Prince) get older the practicality of another baby diminishes. My life as it is now holds great joy and comfort and I start to get fearful of "overturning the applecart" so to speak.

So I leave it as an open ended prayer and wish for the year...

I hope and pray 2009 brings joy and happiness and growth like I could never imagine for myself and my family.


  1. praying for God's will in your life is always a good thing to pray for; and for him to perhaps open up doors for where he wants you to go next in your journey; just a thought

    hoping it will be a year of contentment, joy and peace for you and your family, Erin


  2. I can imagine it still hurts, and if it helps talking on here, that's a good thing.
    Happy New Year to you all.
    Gaz xxxxx

  3. When I read this post, all I could think of was Julie Andrews saying..."when God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.." (or something like that) I hope for good things for your family....whatever they may be!
    P/S.... You can always get a bigger apple cart! :)

  4. I can't say I "know" or understand, but I can slide into tears a little.