Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Tired

Feeling Quiet
Hearing Silence

I am tired.

Tired of trying to get pregnant.

Tired of hoping that I am pregnant.

Tired of waiting each month to find out yet again I am not pregnant.

Tired of feeling like a failure each month that I am not pregnant.

Tired of being afraid that I am pregnant and going to have another miscarriage.

Tired of seeing everyone else get pregnant.

Tired of seeing my friends and family get pregnant.

Tired of seeing my friends and family get pregnant again.

Tired of not being able to feel happy for them.

Tired of faking the happiness.

Tired of faking the “I’m okay”.

Tired of feeling this way.

I am just so tired.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Cloudy Day

Feeling Sad
Hearing None

I woke up with a cloud of sadness over me this morning. I am planning my day and trying to just stay busy so I do not have a lot of time to think. I don’t want to feel this way.