Well...here it is. My due date.
I am not sure what I expected to feel today but I did not expect it to feel like this.
I am feeling totally decimated...almost like this loss is happening all over again.
I kind of already knew that my real healing could not start until after my due date.
I no longer need to look at every pregnant women and wonder how pregnant she is for a comparison. Each week ticking by will no longer mean the same thing. I now have a totally different set of dates...the what if dates.
I have had this experience before. I don't know if it is because I am alone today that it feels harder than last time.
I sit here and cry and pray and cry and pray.
I knew this date would be hard. I just did not expect it to be this hard.