Thursday, October 16, 2008

Bitter much?

Feeling Sad
Hearing The Today Show

I am feeling very emotional this morning.

I am not sure what triggered it but I am very weepy.

The bitterness has been creeping in a bit this month.

Not entirely unexpected...I should be over 38 weeks right now.

I should be miserably huge right now. I should be bitching about being pregnant and how I can't wait to get this baby out of me. I should be counting down the minutes until I meet a precious new life.

Instead I am still trying to get pregnant. I went to the doctor earlier this month to "reregulate" my cycle. I feel like we are starting over. I feel like we are running out of time. I am so mad about it!

I see a woman I am in the PTO with everyday walking up to school to pick up her kids. She is WAY pregnant and has what should be MY due date. I was talking to her and another mother last week and she was complaining about all her symptoms. I had to excuse myself. I could not hear another word. Around most pregnant people I am fine but for some reason I am extremely resentful towards this woman. There is no rhyme or reason (except the due date thing). It makes me feel like such a horrible person.

I am crying and praying this morning.

Praying for peace to settle in my heart.

7 comments:

  1. (((Erin)))

    Lord, we lift Erin up to you and just ask that you give her peace this morning; that she can feel your presence, that you give her wisdom on how to be around this lady at school, and that you shower her with your blessings in her life; that you put people in her life that will love on her and be sensitive to her as she deals with these issues, that you draw her closer to you and show her your love for her, in Jesus we pray amen.

    (((Erin)))

    betty

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  2. Heavenly Father, I ask that you ease the hurt and saddness that Erin has. I pray for her peace and comfort and that you show her the serenity that can only come through you. I ask that you be with her, especially when she is with the other woman from school, that she just feel your holy spirit wrap himself around her, love her and protect her. Lord, I pray for a miracle and that Erin be blessed with a beautiful baby. I know that you have plans to prosper Erin - we are claiming those promises and we are not allowing Satan to take them from her any longer, in Jesus name, I pray that Erin be pregnant and that she have a beautiful, healthy baby. Lord, we are acting in Faith and we look forward to Erin telling us about her upcoming pregnancy.
    In Jesus Name I pray these things,
    Amen

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  3. I wish I knew words to heal and comfort you. Sounds like you have much support from friends and family as you struggle with this. I am praying that God brings you peace.

    God Bless
    Janis

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  4. You have no need to apologize for how you feel about that woman. She just doesn't realize what a blessing she has. I hope things turn for you soon.
    Hugs, Chrissie

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  5. Hey Honey. I'm with you on this. I'm letting my mind slip away to thoughts of what could have been... it is a lonely place.

    Praying for you.

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  6. I will prey this sunday for you, I know it will happen. Ly Cass

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  7. This is my first time in this blog and it's difficult for me as a male. I am so sorry you feel like this at the moment. It will pass, I assure you.
    Gaz xxxxxxxxxx

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